1. I am alive, and I will heal.
2. I will have to say goodbye to my beloved baby Mercedes, but knowing that it saved my life is a big comfort.
3. The dozen or so police officers, firemen, and paramedics who got my car off the freeway and towed away, made sure I was safe, splinted my arm, and caught me when I lost consciousness. Especially the one who held my neck still for about 5 minutes with his hands while they examined my spine. Also the officer who went back to my car to find my coat.
4. My mother and father, and especially Jonathan who rented a car to meet me at the hospital. (With a soft blanket and a lemon pelligrino).
5. The very patient x-Ray technician who somehow managed to get good film of my face, nose, neck, back, and wrist with me being all wobbly.
6. The tired nurse who fitted my cast and measured twice to make sure it would be comfortable.
7. My father who waited in line for 30 minutes at a shady walgreens to get my pain medications, and took me home and made me a sandwich.
8. Pills that should help with the aching and soreness.
9. My nose and my cheek are not broken, and I only have minor bruising on my face.
10. I cut my hair short last week, so I don’t have to deal with it now. Huge.
11. I broke my left wrist. I am right-handed.
12. The strong bones I inherited from my father.
13. The friends who love me and care about me.
14. I will probably feel like hell for the next week, but all things considered I made it out pretty okay. I will be okay. I am lucky.
The phrase “S/he’s a keeper!”, always makes me laugh a little. People only mention when their significant other is a keeper. Nobody ever says “oh yeah, S/he’s a total loser. I’m making a huge fucking mistake.”
Life is sometimes life and sometimes only a drama, and one must learn to distinguish tother from which.
—E.M. Forster, Howards End
What’s terrible is to pretend that second-rate is first-rate. To pretend that you don’t need love when you do; or you like your work when you know quite well you’re capable of better.
—Doris Lessing, The Golden Notebook