Scar tissue that I wish you saw.
Try to learn to let what is unfair teach you.
—David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest
I feel like people are only really dead once you stop learning about them. This is why it is important to me to keep learning about my mother, and what she wanted, and what her life meant, what she meant by the life she led. Then she will be alive, somehow, and her wish for me will have come true. My vow is to learn more about her. To see her as she saw herself.
—Liz Moore, Heft
We’d been apart so long—I’d been dead so long,” she said in English. “I thought surely you’d built a new life, with no room in it for me. I’d hoped that.”
“My life is nothing but room for you.” I said. “It could never be filled by anyone but you.
—Kurt Vonnegut, “Mother Night” (via duckmigrations)
Man, sometimes I forget how much I love Mother Night.
You just might not understand it yet. But it’s cool. Family is super cool. Going home to one girl every night is super cool. Just going home and getting on the floor and playing with your child is super cool. Not wearing a red leather jacket, and just looking like a dad and shit, is like super cool. Having someone that I can call Mom again. That shit is super cool.
All we’ve got are metaphors, and they’re never exactly right. You can never just Say. The. Thing.
—Jennifer Egan, A Visit from the Goon Squad